This is the disadvantage of living alone. Away from your family. When you are in pain, physically, emotionally, no one will take care of you. Yes, others may cry with you, others may help you, they have cared. But in the confinement of our humanness, the demands of their lives must take precedence and in the end you shall stand alone.
In times like this, i miss my home in the province and my home in heaven, but my mission is not yet finish.
Now I understand Paul when He said in Philippians “I desire to depart and be with Christ , which is better by far”