I’ve been struggling lately, I always lose my temper. I get easily irritated with small things. I feel like I couldn’t do anything other than watching my daughter. I don’t even have time for myself. I am losing my patience and temper and definitely not proud of it. I want to be creative in our time together but my mind seems no longer functioning. I couldn’t thing of any.
Could it be because I am pregnant again or maybe I am not stay at home material mom.
Don’t get me wrong I love my daughter, she’s definitely the most charismatic baby I have ever seen, she smiles at anyone. She smiles and talks most of the time. I love being able to teach her and see all the ways she’s growing up. However I feel like lately, I’m not good enough for her.
I remember what the Israelites said to Moses in Numbers 21:5, when they get tired of eating manna, they complained “there is nothing to eat here and nothing to drink. And we hate this horrible manna.”
Am I becoming like the Israelites? Getting tired of what I’m doing and want to do other things?
Oh Lord, forgive me for grumbling, forgive me for thinking this way. Help me to embrace the life you’ve given me and be satisfied with what I have and doing now. Help me to live a life to the fullest.
Today I am thankful for the following
#31- 36 years of existence
#32- my daughter turned one year old last month
#33-my second pregnancy
#34- was able to visit my country and hometown.
#35- the time we spent with my family.
#36-mother-in-law who’s helping us.
#37-husband who is hardworking and thrifty.
#38-spending time in prayer every morning with my husband.
#39-daughter who smiles to anyone.
#40- a new apartment to stay.