Unwise Servant

IMG_1505Another came, saying ‘Master, here is your mina, which I kept put away in a handkerchief; for I was afraid of you, because you are an exacting man; you take up what you did not lay down and reap what you did not sow.’ Luke 19:20-21

I don’t want to make the graveyard wealthy by not utilizing my gifts. I may feel inadequate sometimes, I may feel like I don’t have gifts or talents at all but I believe God has given me enough to share. It may not be as spectaculars as others. I don’t want to bury it out of fear and insecurity just like the unwise servant.

Father my prayer today is, may you show me the skills, gifts or talents you’ve given me. I may need to develop them or need to be invested in order for them to mature. May you open doors or opportunities for me to use, develop or invest them. I want to utilize anything that you’ve given me to glorify your name.  Amen

Missing the Main Point of our Faith

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There are so many things that vie for our attention that we lose sight of God. I’m not talking about the cares of this life, I’m speaking of the spiritual things. We talk too much about doctrines, church multiplication, God’s mission, giving, gifts of the Holy Spirit. We are too busy with the things of God, unknowingly we are losing Christ.

We talk about church multiplication, but never mention Jesus Christ. We preach holiness but failed to present Christ as our holiness. We preach righteousness but failed to mention Christ as our righteousness. We talk about blessing but failed to remind the Church that Christ Himself is our great blessing. We are passionately pursuing the things of God, without realizing we are putting other things on the throne (religious, spiritual things) and let Christ sit on the floor. And we wonder why we couldn’t see Christ move in the Church

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This reminds me of the story of Zaccheus and the young rich guy who questioned Jesus Christ on how to be saved. He failed to see Jesus as Savior. He wanted salvation but never seek the Savior. He wanted an answer but not the teacher.

Zaccheus however, did everything just to gaze at Jesus Christ. He risk whatever he had to see Jesus Christ and the Lord rewarded him. Jesus Christ dined with him, conversed with him and revealed Himself to him.

We maybe rewarded with knowledge when we pursue the things of God, there is more than knowledge though, Christ, He wants to reveal Himself to us. May we not miss the main point of our faith which is Christ alone by pursuing the spiritual things.

Hebrew 11:6b “he is a rewarder of those who diligently seek him”

Counting my Blessings!

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Couple of months ago I taught my 3-year-old how to read using the book Teach your child to read in 100 easy lessons. We were able to finish the book in a month, I am thankful for her patience and her willingness to learn, she loves learning and reading.

My husband hasn’t been working since November, I am constantly amazed of how our needs are being met. It’s amazing, I even stop worrying. I am more at peace now than when he was still working. Yes, I can honestly say  we have everything we need. The Lord is good, faithful and true.

The simple joy of drinking coffee.

Pancake, I love it.

Thankful for the clean air lately, we were able to go out.

The smell of my two babies, I love smelling them. It’s therapeutic

Giggling and laughing from my two daughters.

The joy it gives me while watching my two daughters ages 39 and 22 months conversing with each other. They speak Chinese and I have no clue what they’re talking about.

Thankful for my husband’s cooking.

Thankful for these promises from The Lord.

The silver is Mine and the gold is Mine,’ declares the Lord of hosts. ‘The latter glory of this house will be greater than the former,’ says the Lord of hosts, ‘and in this place I will give peace,’ declares the Lord of hosts.” (Haggai 2:8, 9 NASB)

For the lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” (Zephaniah 3:17 NLT)

Feeling Spiritually Dry

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Before, I thought that a season of dry spell in our Christian walk is not from God. I thought when we feel dry in our spiritual life  it is either  the attack of the enemy or we are not spending enough time with The Lord.

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Ecclesiastes 3:1 says, there is an appointed time for everything. If the Lord authors wet seasons, He also plans dry spells.

Dry season is the time when your spiritual life is so dull, you feel like you are just going to the motions. There is no excitement, the joy you once experienced seems hard to find. When you read your Bible, the pages seem blank. The songs that you loved to sing no longer touch your heart. Prayer becomes boring. Fellowship no longer excites you.

This is the time when you’re not satisfied with just reading your bible, you want more, you want fresh revelations. This is the time when you don’t know what to pray anymore , you want your prayer to be more than asking. This is the time when you question yourself, what if there will be no band playing in the church, what if there will be no choir, what if no one is leading the praise and worship. What if we just let the Holy Spirit leads the church. What would possibly happen? Will I still cry when I sing, can I still dance or raise my hands. This is the time when you want a genuine community, that meeting once or twice a week isn’t enough for you, you want more than just chatting during Sundays, you want a real community who cares for each other, who cares for the needs of each member. A community who treats each other like family.

IMG_1185I’ve been a Christian for more than 20 years and been into so many dry spells. However it was during this time that I felt so broken and needed The Lord most. It was during this time that I learned things I never learned during wet seasons. It was during this season that I became deep spiritually and I grew tremendously during dry spells. God breathed new life on the things that were dead. It was during this time that the Lord birthed new things in me.

Dry spell is God’s way of saying to us. I am with you during good times. I am also with you during dry times. This is also a time when our loyalty to The Lord is being tested. “Do  we only want Him during wet seasons, when the river runs dry, do we still want the Giver? When the blessings are running out, do we still find ourselves loyal to  the God of blessing? This is the time when The Lord wants to put to death things so that He can resurrect them in the way He wants.

This might be a time to die,

A time to uproot,

A time to tear down,

A time to weep,

time to mourn,

time to embrace or shun embracing,

time to search or time to give up,

time to throw away,

time to tear apart,

time to be silent.

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What do we do during this season? Embrace it, walk through it, it will come to pass, The Lord brings them, he eventually removes them. Patience, perseverance, that’s what you need. Don’t harden your heart. He is with you.

 

I am Thankful……

(159-171) IMG_1353for the tress outside our windows, every time I look outside, these trees remind me of God’s grace and faithfulness. They never toil nor spin yet The Lord sustains them. If the Father take care of these tress how much more will He provide all our needs.

for the birds I see outside our windows, they constantly reminding me of God’s love, their presence reminds me that I’m valuable. They neither sow nor reap, they have no storeroom or barn and yet God feeds them. Indeed I am more important than them. 2735_68035339450_892650_n

for 5 years of marriage, boy it wasn’t always blissful, truly I am thankful for His grace we were able to reach this milestone.

that my visa was extended, it was a frustrating and nerve-wracking ordeal, they’re stricter here than Guangzhou.

that after 5 years of staying here, we finally move to the Philippines and hopefully this is for good.

we are all healthy and haven’t visited the hospital for almost a year now. for the free ebooks from dccebooks.com and noisetrade.com and the free songs from weareworship.com

for our needs are being met each day. for allowing me to face my fears and giving me the grace to embrace them.

for giving me the grace to live each day. Indeed He is good and faithful.

IMG_1318 for the flowers I see around, for the season, I love spring. IMG_1142 for my children and husband. The Lord is using them to break me, in my brokenness  the Lord is becoming bigger.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ “A grateful heart is a generous heart, and a generous heart is a liberated heart~Tullian Tchvidjain”

“Envy is the art of counting the other fellow’s blessings instead of your own.~Harold Coffin”

Please Hear and Forgive

O Lord, God of Israel, there is no God like you in all of heaven above or on the earth below. You fulfill you promises and show unfailing love and grace to those who seek You. Whatever promise you made, You will indeed fulfill it.

You have been so good to me and I couldn’t be more grateful.

Forgive me when I follow my own desires and not Yours, just as I have many times before.

Forgive me when I get destructed from Your purposes, forgetting Your hopes and plans for me and unknowingly put my attention into something that is destructive and dishonor You.

Forgive me when I am doing things on my own wisdom without even considering Yours.
Please know that deep down in my heart all I want is to follow and please You.
That even in my worst moment when it may seem that I have given my affection into something or someone other than You, Please know that my allegiance is always be to You.

When the cares of this world is blinding me from trusting You, when materialism may seem so huge that I become so proud and greedy. When I become so full of myself and I forgetting about others. When I come to my senses and will turn back from them and plead for your mercy and forgiveness. Please hear and forgive.

Oh Lord this is the truest desire of my life. That when my thoughts are not clouded, there is nothing I want more than to know You, to be transformed by You and to follow You. There will be times when I will fail to show that, please remind me to humble myself and come back to You with a saddened and repentant heart. And when I do I pray please hear and forgive.

I want You to know that no matter what happens, whatever life may bring, in failings and successes, in poverty and in prosperity, in sicknesses and in health, I am resolved to keep coming back to you.

Amen!

 

When The Lord is Silent

IMG_0458However] when they had rowed three or four miles, they saw Jesus walking on the sea and approaching the boat. And they were afraid (terrified). (John 6:19 AMP)

It isn’t fun to ride a boat when the waves are high, it’s uncomfortable, scary and even if you want to rest and sleep, you couldn’t. This probably what the disciples were going through. Their boat was beaten and tossed by the waves. It was a long and tiring day for them, exhausted from the emotions of the day and they just wanted to rest. But how can they rest with that situation. They were probably anxious and worried. And the worst thing Jesus wasn’t there, maybe if Jesus was there, somehow they can rest because they witnessed how Jesus calmed the storm in the past. Maybe Thomas was saying them, “ah where is our teacher when we needed him most.” Peter and Andrew were probably trying everything for them to stay alive, they’re fishermen.

IMG_0504However when they almost lost their hope, they saw someone walking, the master was coming. But wait, he didn’t calm the storm yet. “Oh Lord” shouted the other disciples “please calm the storm!” Jesus said, “hey, I’m here, don’t be afraid”

Jesus came, He was with them on the waves, in the storm, he came when they least expected it. And he only calmed the wind when he got on the boat.

From time to time we experience storms of life, sometimes Jesus calms the storm when we asked, sometimes He chose not to and allow us to be beaten and tossed by the waves for some time not because he abandoned us, he has a reason though. It’s just temporary he will surely calm the storm.

He comes on the waves, in the storm of life He is with us. He comes in our weakest state, maybe not the time that we would expect him to, but He comes still. He had not forgotten us. Maybe we feel like he is silent, yes maybe He is, but that doesn’t mean that He has left us. He is there the whole time, he gives us hope, he is eager to meet us in the storm and bring peace in the waves. In His time He will surely calm our storm.

His love is Amazing

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But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:8 NASB)

Your love is beyond comprehension.
It surpasses knowledge.
Your love is radical.
It’s crazy.
Your love is abundant
It is inexhaustible.
Indeed Your love is amazing.

Oh Lord how great is that love, the love that took You to the cross for me. I praise and thank You, my Lord, my Savior.