Multitudes on Mondays

(235-246)

Brokenness, the more I feel and see how broken I am, the more I cling to The Lord.

A gentle reminder from Him to live for the present and not for the future.

The gift of “now” reminding myself to live in the present is somehow giving me peace and rest.

Grace, everyday is grace from God, no matter how imperfect life may be, my ability to go through with life is grace from Him

My mess, shouting at my children, trying to manipulate them, choosing anger instead of understanding.  I’m not proud of those, yes Lord I need you more, and thank You for changing me each day.

Thank You for allowing me to grow as a mother to my children and wife to my husband.

Thank you Holy Spirit for rebuking me and allowing me to repent. Remind me always not to do it again and if ever I slip again, may you not get tired of pulling me up. May you soften my heart that I may repent hastily

Thankful for the rain, it seldom rains here.

Thankful for the air was good  and we were able to go out.

Today the weather isn’t that hot, I’m thankful for that.

Thankful for the book I’m reading “Letters to Young Pastor” by Calvin Miller

Thankful for the coffee every day.

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Please Hear and Forgive

O Lord, God of Israel, there is no God like you in all of heaven above or on the earth below. You fulfill you promises and show unfailing love and grace to those who seek You. Whatever promise you made, You will indeed fulfill it.

You have been so good to me and I couldn’t be more grateful.

Forgive me when I follow my own desires and not Yours, just as I have many times before.

Forgive me when I get destructed from Your purposes, forgetting Your hopes and plans for me and unknowingly put my attention into something that is destructive and dishonor You.

Forgive me when I am doing things on my own wisdom without even considering Yours.
Please know that deep down in my heart all I want is to follow and please You.
That even in my worst moment when it may seem that I have given my affection into something or someone other than You, Please know that my allegiance is always be to You.

When the cares of this world is blinding me from trusting You, when materialism may seem so huge that I become so proud and greedy. When I become so full of myself and I forgetting about others. When I come to my senses and will turn back from them and plead for your mercy and forgiveness. Please hear and forgive.

Oh Lord this is the truest desire of my life. That when my thoughts are not clouded, there is nothing I want more than to know You, to be transformed by You and to follow You. There will be times when I will fail to show that, please remind me to humble myself and come back to You with a saddened and repentant heart. And when I do I pray please hear and forgive.

I want You to know that no matter what happens, whatever life may bring, in failings and successes, in poverty and in prosperity, in sicknesses and in health, I am resolved to keep coming back to you.

Amen!

 

May my attitude be like

……..this every time I face trials and troubles

[But what of that?] For I consider that the sufferings of this present time (this present life) are not worth being compared with the glory that is about to be revealed to us and in us and for us and conferred on us! (Romans 8:18 AMP)

May I look and find meaning beyond the trials. May I find joy in the midst of sufferings knowing that I have inheritance reserved for me in heaven, these troubles are just temporary compared with the glory he will reveal later.

Ahh, how I pray to have an attitude like Paul. My heart is oftentimes clouded with life’s circumstances and allow them to speak louder than His promises.

I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.] (John 16:33 AMP)

Peace I leave with you; My [own] peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. [Stop allowing yourselves to be agitated and disturbed; and do not permit yourselves to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled.] (John 14:27 AMP)

Don’t let me lose sight of You, Lord, may I remember to renew my mind everyday and let your promises refresh me. May I not be intimidated with my circumstances. May I allow your peace to reign in my heart instead of worries, to stop doubt from ministering to me, may I bathe my mind with your Word.

Doing Everything for The Glory of God

From time to time I am thinking about how much our life had changed since we got married and started a family. Our hope and dream to be in the front line was sidetracked and put on hold.

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Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, I love my daughter, indeed she brings joy and blessings to our lives and another blessing is coming, 11 weeks from now I’ll be giving birth to our second child. But sometimes I thought of just how much of my time is spent in our house. We rarely go out anymore. I envied those women who are doing full-time in the ministry especially those missionaries. I stopped teaching in the Sunday School since I gave birth. I couldn’t even stay long in the church every Sunday to listen to the preaching because my daughter sometimes is noisy and I need to bring her out.
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Soon, I’ll be taking care of a toddler and a baby, couldn’t help but think….. can I ever go back to the ministry. I used to feel fulfilled when I did some ministries.

I am thanking the Father for reminding me of this verse, “So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” 1 Corinthians 10:31

Being a wife to my husband and mother to my children are major part of my ministry. Whether I am at home taking care of my family, doing household chores, changing diaper, breastfeeding, bringing my daughter to the park, etc, etc… or sharing the gospel, it should be done with joy and grateful spirit.

I should do everything for the glory of God.

Father, you have a purpose for everything, thank you for the family you have given me. Thank you for giving me a loving husband, a lovely daughter and letting me pregnant again. Instead of thinking about the past, may You give me the grace to embrace completely the life I have now. Help me to minister to my family for your glory. Amen!

My thankful list for this week….. I am thankful for the following:

#73 opportunity to share the gospel again

#74 the pizza I made and the bread that my husband made

#75 reminding me not to forget the keys everytime I go out

#76 the public transportation, it’s convenient to commute, with the subways and buses

#77 thankful that a friend working in the middle east was given a free airplane ticket so she could visit her family back home on July

#78 for the good weather, I can go out for a walk and my daughter can play also outside

#79 the seven stars we saw in the sky the other night, rarely you see them here because of the pollution

#80 bread machine my husband bought

#81 a husband who’s helping me at home, he’s cooking and washing dishes

#82 that the result of my tests are all great

#83 a healthy baby in the womb

#84 for a sister who is celebrating her birthday today

This post This post has been submitted to this week’s Gratitude post with Ann Voskamp and to Thankful Thursday with Iris.

The Harvest is Rotting

He said to his disciples, “The harvest is great, but the workers are few. So pray to the Lord who is in charge of the harvest; ask him to send more workers into his fields. Matthew 9:37-38

picture is credited to Sun Seven

Last week  I was watching the news on TV about Afghanistan. This wasn’t the first time I saw Afghan people on TV but yesterday was different. I felt something so different. My emotion was high. It must be from the Holy Spirit. I felt compassion for them. They are precious in the Father’s eyes, yes their souls are so precious.

I was convicted, have I ever prayed for this people group, have I ever prayed for the Christians and missionaries in that Country? The spirit of apathy was revealed in me.

They are blinded by Satan, they are dying without knowing Christ and yes the harvest is plentiful and some are rotting but am I doing something? I can not go there but there is one thing that I can do…. pray for these precious souls… prayer is the best thing I can do and the most powerful one.

Father, forgive my apathetic heart. I confess, I haven’t fully grasped the lostness of others. I pray that you will use this revelation in my life to help me grasp the reality of lostness. May you send more workers to the unreached. May I have a passion to share Christ with the lost, pray and financially support Missionaries and pray for people group of the world who have not heard of the gospel, Amen!

Counting the Stones

PhotobucketThen you can tell them, ‘They remind us that the Jordan River stopped flowing when the Ark of the LORD’s Covenant went across.’ These stones will stand as a memorial among the people of Israel forever.” Joshua 4:7 (NLT)

Oh, If I may count the miracles Your have done in my life, it would be like counting the sand upon the seashore.  If I may keep a stone for every miracle and amazing thing You have done, It would fill our house.  Many are the wonders You have done  and that I can’t even count them.

Yet I sometimes forget them. Forgive my forgetfulness, forgive my ungratefulness.  My heart is prone to forget Your goodness.

Oh Lord, that I may never forget them, that I may always remember them especially when I feel hopeless and discouraged. I may give back the glory that belongs to you alone.

Gifts and stones for these week. #61 to 72. I’m grateful for the following:

For the opportunity to share Christ to someone

For opportunity to pray for someone’s need.

For a husband who is thirsty for the Lord.

Healing my daughter from diarrhea.

Exposing what’s in my heart every time I read His word.

The books I am reading, I am encouraged, inspired and have learned a lot.

The library where I borrow books.

Western food every Sunday.

People who are generously offering their sit on the bus or train.

Seeing the smile from other people especially the old ones every time my daughter smiles at them.

For promoting us.

For renewing our Visa.

This post This post has been submitted to this week’s Gratitude post with Ann Voskamp and to Thankful Thursday with Iris.

Cover your Mouth and Let God be God

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10

Can’t I just stop for a while, stop of my whining, stop of my complaining, stop of my asking, stop of my hermeneutics, stop of thinking what would the verse mean to me, stop of thinking how to apply the verse I just read.

Yes I want to quiet my soul, heart and mind. I want to cover my mouth and set my sights on Him. I want to let Him take His rightful place.

“BE STILL OH MY SOUL AND KNOW THAT HE IS GOD”

I’ll be quiet oh God, glorify Yourself, take Your rightful place in my life.

Enthrone yourself in my life.

Be the Lord and King over our needs, wants and desires.

Be the Lord and King over our fears, struggles and problems.

Be the Lord and King over our body, over our thoughts, over our hearts and over our mouth.

Be the Lord and King over my husband and children.

Be the Lord and King over my family (parents, sister, nephew, brother-in-law, grandmother, Aunts, Uncles, cousins and relatives)

Be the Lord and King over my husband’s work.

Be the Lord and King over our finances.

Be the Lord and King over our dreams, plans, goals and visions.

Be the Lord and King over our sickness.

Be the Lord and King over the things we eat.

Be the Lord and King over our daily activities.

Be the Lord and King over our conversation.

Be the Lord and King over our pains and sorrows.

Be the Lord and King over the things we browse on the internet and over my blog.

Magnify Yourself.

Exalt Yourself.

Hollowed be Your Name over our life.

Be God of God over our life.

Amen!

 Linking up with Internet Cafe Devotions for Word-Filled Wednesday and My Daily Walk with His Grace for Winsome Wednesday.

My life is useless if there was no Resurrection

PhotobucketChristians all over the world are celebrating the resurrection day today. It’s one of the most amazing things happened in Christian history. Everything about Jesus is amazing but this one is the most important event ever. As Apostle Paul said in 1 Corinthians, If Christ has not been raised from the dead then our faith is useless and we are still guilty of our sins. We are the most pitiful creature on earth if our hope in Christ is only for this life.

And if there is no resurrection, “Let’s feast and drink, for tomorrow we die” I sometimes live a life like this, not that I’m feasting and drinking everyday. I’m living my life like it will end when I die, I sometimes forget that there is life after death.. My life doesn’t end here on earth and because Christ was resurrected I too is going to experience that someday.

When my life ends here on earth, there is another life waiting for me, a life that is far more lovely and beautiful. Sadly though, rarely  i think about that life, I am so much preoccupied with my life here on earth.

Father, I pray remind me always of the life I have when you called me home. Oftentimes I’m forgetting that I have a life far more better than my life here on earth.

May that inspire me to live my life here to the fullest, to enjoy life instead of thinking about pains and sufferings.

May that motivate me to live a holy life and a life pleasing to you, because whatever you’ve called me to do here on earth is just a preparation for eternity.

May this truth give me perseverance.

May this truth about your resurrection give me hope, courage and strength to face the challenges in life.

May this truth aspire me more not to live a mediocre life but an excellent one.

May this truth about your resurrection bring me closer to you each day.

Amen!