Happy Birthday Bethany

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAYou just turn three today.  You’ve been our source of joy, we’re so blessed to have you in our life. We are forever grateful to God for entrusting you to us.

We pray that the Lord may  fill you with wisdom, understanding and knowledge.

May He shower you with gifts talents, skills, and may you use those to glorify His name.

May you be healthy mentally, physically and emotionally as you grow.

May the Lord favor you and be with you always.

We pray that the Lord may preserve you until the time of your marriage.

May you entrust your life to Him even at the young age and  serve Him for the rest of your life.

We pray that may you be generous and loving.

And most of all we pray that even at the young age may you learn to find happiness not in material things but in the things that cannot be bought by money.

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I’m still learning to let go and trying to embrace your childhood, accepting you for who you are and not forcing you to be the person I want you to be. You have a strong personality, you like to do things on your own. Your independence is astonishing. Your beauty is unique. Your intelligence is amazing. We are always proud of you. We love you unconditionally.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Jie jie!

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Doing Everything for The Glory of God

From time to time I am thinking about how much our life had changed since we got married and started a family. Our hope and dream to be in the front line was sidetracked and put on hold.

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Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, I love my daughter, indeed she brings joy and blessings to our lives and another blessing is coming, 11 weeks from now I’ll be giving birth to our second child. But sometimes I thought of just how much of my time is spent in our house. We rarely go out anymore. I envied those women who are doing full-time in the ministry especially those missionaries. I stopped teaching in the Sunday School since I gave birth. I couldn’t even stay long in the church every Sunday to listen to the preaching because my daughter sometimes is noisy and I need to bring her out.
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Soon, I’ll be taking care of a toddler and a baby, couldn’t help but think….. can I ever go back to the ministry. I used to feel fulfilled when I did some ministries.

I am thanking the Father for reminding me of this verse, “So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” 1 Corinthians 10:31

Being a wife to my husband and mother to my children are major part of my ministry. Whether I am at home taking care of my family, doing household chores, changing diaper, breastfeeding, bringing my daughter to the park, etc, etc… or sharing the gospel, it should be done with joy and grateful spirit.

I should do everything for the glory of God.

Father, you have a purpose for everything, thank you for the family you have given me. Thank you for giving me a loving husband, a lovely daughter and letting me pregnant again. Instead of thinking about the past, may You give me the grace to embrace completely the life I have now. Help me to minister to my family for your glory. Amen!

My thankful list for this week….. I am thankful for the following:

#73 opportunity to share the gospel again

#74 the pizza I made and the bread that my husband made

#75 reminding me not to forget the keys everytime I go out

#76 the public transportation, it’s convenient to commute, with the subways and buses

#77 thankful that a friend working in the middle east was given a free airplane ticket so she could visit her family back home on July

#78 for the good weather, I can go out for a walk and my daughter can play also outside

#79 the seven stars we saw in the sky the other night, rarely you see them here because of the pollution

#80 bread machine my husband bought

#81 a husband who’s helping me at home, he’s cooking and washing dishes

#82 that the result of my tests are all great

#83 a healthy baby in the womb

#84 for a sister who is celebrating her birthday today

This post This post has been submitted to this week’s Gratitude post with Ann Voskamp and to Thankful Thursday with Iris.

Counting the Stones

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Oh, If I may count the miracles Your have done in my life, it would be like counting the sand upon the seashore.  If I may keep a stone for every miracle and amazing thing You have done, It would fill our house.  Many are the wonders You have done  and that I can’t even count them.

Yet I sometimes forget them. Forgive my forgetfulness, forgive my ungratefulness.  My heart is prone to forget Your goodness.

Oh Lord, that I may never forget them, that I may always remember them especially when I feel hopeless and discouraged. I may give back the glory that belongs to you alone.

Gifts and stones for these week. #61 to 72. I’m grateful for the following:

For the opportunity to share Christ to someone

For opportunity to pray for someone’s need.

For a husband who is thirsty for the Lord.

Healing my daughter from diarrhea.

Exposing what’s in my heart every time I read His word.

The books I am reading, I am encouraged, inspired and have learned a lot.

The library where I borrow books.

Western food every Sunday.

People who are generously offering their sit on the bus or train.

Seeing the smile from other people especially the old ones every time my daughter smiles at them.

For promoting us.

For renewing our Visa.

This post This post has been submitted to this week’s Gratitude post with Ann Voskamp and to Thankful Thursday with Iris.

I am now in my 23th week of Pregnancy

I am now in my 23th week of pregnancy, which means I’ve hit the halfway mark.

My tummy looks bigger, probably because it’s my second but I only weigh like 108 lbs

I visited the hospital for my ultrasound last week, the result says everything is normal, the baby seems doing great, we don’t know the sex yet. The baby started to move before I hit my 4 months.

Things have been so much better these days. I can still carry my daughter who is 24 lbs. I can do everything except that when I walk far I can feel little pain on my back. I’ve been more choosy with the food though.

And my hormones and emotions are changing too.

I am more emotional I guess. I get easily irritated even with the small things and feel  frustrated that I couldn’t do the things I want.

There were just times when I felt … overwhelmed with emotions.

Feeling blue sometimes and so touchy, rather than uttering unnecessarily unhappy words, I chose to stay quieter throughout the day.

I sometimes feel so sleepy but couldn’t sleep because my daughter is awake. That makes me more frustrated.

I’m just glad that it doesn’t happen to me too often so far. I’m trying really to be happy at all the times, I’m kind of tired being grumpy and moody.

Anyway,  I thank God for the strength, good health and everything.  To know that our baby’s growing well inside is truly amazing!

With all the overwhelming feelings…

I’m excited to see our next child.

Thankful Thursday

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Another day has passed, yesterday I was thinking about my life. Honestly I feel like I am not doing anything worthy. I am “just” a stay-at-home mom and wife.

I’ve been struggling lately, I always lose my temper.  I get easily irritated  with small things. I feel like I couldn’t do anything other than watching my daughter. I don’t even have time for myself.  I am losing my patience and temper and definitely not proud of it. I want to be creative in our time together but my mind seems no longer functioning. I couldn’t thing of any.

Could it be because I am pregnant again or maybe I am not stay at home material mom.

Don’t get me wrong I love my daughter, she’s definitely the most charismatic baby I have ever seen, she smiles at anyone. She smiles and talks most of the time. I love being able to teach her and see all the ways she’s growing up. However I feel like lately, I’m not good enough for her.

I remember what the Israelites said to Moses in Numbers 21:5, when they get tired of eating manna, they complained “there is nothing to eat here and nothing to drink. And we hate this horrible manna.”

Am I becoming like the Israelites? Getting tired of what I’m doing and want to do other things?

Oh Lord, forgive me for grumbling, forgive me for thinking this way. Help me to embrace the life you’ve given me and be satisfied with what I have and doing now. Help me to live a life to the fullest.

Today I am thankful for the following

#31- 36 years of existence

#32- my daughter turned one year old last month

#33-my second pregnancy

#34- was able to visit my country and hometown.

#35- the time we spent with my family.

#36-mother-in-law who’s helping us.

#37-husband who is hardworking and thrifty.

#38-spending time in prayer every morning with my husband.

#39-daughter who smiles to anyone.

#40- a new apartment to stay.

This post This post has been submitted to the week’s Gratitude post with Ann Voskampand to Thankful Thursday with Laura.

I Can’t Believe It’s been a Year already

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My daughter turns one year old this month, ah time flies too quickly. It seems like yesterday when she was like this, tiny, little, cute baby.

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Ahh those sleepless nights. I can still remember the fears we have, the questions like how much should she eat? How many time should she burp? How would I bathe her? How often should I change the diaper? Why is she sounding this way, is she okey? We questioned everything and worried too much. Our life has never been the same since she came into our life. It’s been much better and a little tougher. It was sometimes frustrating but it was without a doubt an exhilarating experience.

I guess she’s no longer a baby, she’s a little girl now. She can walk, run and climb.  Photobucket

She has 4 teeth. Ah I’m just completely amazed with the changes. She’s gaining independence constantly. She knows what she wants as well as she does not and she’ll tell you.
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She knows how to manipulate. She wants to go there,  get that, try this. When you’re holding her too long she gets angry. She’s curious with everything and trying to imitate the things we do.
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It’s pretty amazing experience watching her grow and learn. And wouldn’t trade the experience for the world.
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Random Blog

Feels like forever since my last post… and it probably is! I have just been busy with other things. I don’t have the luxury of time to stay long in the computer, besides like other sites (facebook, twitter, blogger, etc) wordpress is also blocked here; it made me lazier to blog. Another reason is, since my angel started walking I need to always keep an eye on her.

One week before Christmas we moved to another apartment, it’s much nicer but more expensive that our previous place, it’s near my husband’s work though. It’s a walking distance to my husband’s work and to the house church where he’s attending.

Christmas was just an ordinary day, we didn’t celebrate the way we celebrated it in my country, we went to church that’s all that we did, and so with New Year.

Chinese New Year, we were in the Philippines, we stayed there for 11 days. We spent most of our time in my family in the province; we just stayed in Manila for few days to see my nephew and brother-in-law and to settle some important things. We really didn’t have time to meet our friends, except for some. It was a brief encounter, we really didn’t have enough time to talk.

Our province is very remote; from Manila we traveled 45 minutes by plane to another city。

and from that city we travelled 20 minutes again by plane to my place, unfortunately when we arrived in that city, there were no flights anymore so we need to stay there overnight.

That’s the airplane we rode going to my hometown, it is a 5-seater plane.

Ready to board.

It was my husband’s first time to visit the place. He likes the place so much, he likes the simple life. It’s a small coastal town. Life is so simple.  Electricity runs from  5PM to 9PM, no cars just few tricycles, no pollution. I guess that’s the reason why my husband wants to settle there. It would be a stress free life, a laid-back life an organic life.

We rode a small boat from the town proper to my mother’s place.

She’s enjoying the ride.

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My Parents’ place. She has a sari-sari store, sari-sari means “variety, a convenience store only found in my country.

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She sells rice, gasoline, sugar, etc, etc.

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Some of my cousins

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During our stay there, the weather wasn’t so good, it didn’t stop raining. When it’s raining it would be hard for the plane to fly, so we’ve been praying non-stop also. He is an answering God, when it’s time for us to go back to Manila, the rain stopped and we’re able to fly back.

Our trip was great but traveling back to Manila was a disaster. We didn’t book our ticket from another city to Manila because we didn’t know what date we could return, the weather in my hometown is unpredictable, we tried to buy an airplane ticket when we arrived in that city but it was absolutely high. My husband was upset, he didn’t want to travel by bus, imagine traveling 14 hours by bus and we had a one year old baby. We didn’t have choice anyway. It was really hard. Nevertheless we were so thankful that we’re able to visit my hometown it was God’s miracle indeed. Travelling during that time of the year was really hard because it was rainy season.

That’s our airport in my hometown.

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That’s the airplane we rode from my hometown to another city, it’s much bigger huh, and from that city we took a bus and traveled for 14 hours going to Manila.

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We were thankful during our stay, food was abundant, my husband was able to eat sea foods, unfortunately I couldn’t eat much sea foods because I am pregnant.

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Back in Manila, my brother-in-law treated us in a restaurant; at the same time we celebrated my daughter’s 1st birthday.
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She loves her cake:)

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My Daughter is Going to be a Big Sister

Yes, I am not joking:) She is going to be a big sister, I’m going to be a mother for the second time and my husband is going to be a father for the second time too:) Isn’t that wonderful? My husband is so excited it’s the answer to his prayer, before I became pregnant he kept on telling me, let’s have another one, but I kept on telling him, not now maybe when our daughter reaches two years old but the Father favored him:). I’m little nervous though, I was in labor with my first for 10 1/2 hours and worst pushing for 10 hours long, oh yeah believe it or not I did that for 10 hours and that’s still fresh in my mind, nevertheless I am excited. 

I am seven weeks now. It’s pretty hard though, couldn’t eat much, i feel sick everyday and I’m still breastfeeding my baby.

Ahh thank you Father for the gift of motherhood