He Cares, indeed He does

You yourselves have seen what I did to the Egyptians and how I bore you on eagles’ wings, and brought you to myself. Exodus 19:4

This verse just reminds me of God’s presence, protection and provision. He is a personal God, He cares, indeed He does, although sometimes I feel like He’s unreachable. He’s not far, He’s so near and He’s with me each step of my way.

When it seems like I can no longer put one foot in front of the other, I have the assurance that the Father will carry me like an eagle carries his young of his wings.

Oftentimes what I need is a reminder and not instruction.

Thank you Father for reminding me once again of your great love. Thank you for you are a personal God, wanting to become intimate with your children. Thank you for the assurance that you’re always there even when the journey becomes bumpy. 

This is not the Life I want

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I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. John 12:24 (NIV)

When we moved here three years ago there were times that I felt like I had no purpose and no life at all. I wanted to do the things I love but couldn’t  do them because I was in an unfamiliar place, a new country, a country that was so different with the one I grew up. I felt depressed not having the freedom that I used to have and sometimes I thought “this is not the life I want”

While reading this verse “unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit“, I was reminded to die to ‘self” to die to my personal desires everyday. Yes “my life” was over, because the life I have now is in “Christ” it’s the life that He wants me to embrace. I can not have “my” life and the life of Christ at the same time.

With our three years of staying here I am amazed of how He changed me and my perspective in life. He isn’t done yet and He’s still working, He’s conforming to the image of His Son everyday. It’s not easy to put to death my selfish desires, from time to time they grow, however it is a choice to uproot them everyday.

Father, thank you for reminding me of this. Give me the grace to live for you and to die to myself everyday. Amen!”

In My Desperation…

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In my desperation I prayed, and the LORD listened; he saved me from all my troubles. Psalm 34:6

Father help me to focus my heart and thoughts to you and in you alone. Calm my mind and help me to concentrate and listen to your voice. I cannot do it alone. Let me hear you and you alone

In me there is darkness but with you there is light. In me there is restlessness but with you there is peace.
In me there is loneliness but with you there is fullness of joy
In me there is helplessness but with you there is strength.
In me there is hastiness but with you there is patience.
In me there is foolishness but with you there is wisdom.
In me there is doubtfulness but with you there is faith.
In me there is bitterness but with you there is love.
In me there is selfishness but with you there is freedom.
In me there is limitation but with you everything is possible.
In me there is greediness but with you there is satisfaction.
I don’t understand your ways but you know the way for me and that way is perfect.

Oh Father, Restore me the liberty and enable me to live one day at a time. And whatever this day may bring. May I always glorify you.

Amen!

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Thankful Thursday

Few days ago negative emotions were flooding me, i kept on grumbling, petty stuff irritated me. I couldn’t see anything good. I suddenly became dissatisfied with everything. I felt so tired all the time, I couldn’t sleep. I guess I was experiencing some sort of depression.

I thank the Father for exposing what’s in my heart, the problem was not in my circumstances instead, it’s with my soul. Discontentment was eating me up. I wasn’t contented with what He’s giving. My selfish desires overpowered me. I wasn’t trusting Him with my future.

I thank Him for reminding me once again that I must trust Him completely and believe that He will give what I need the most since He loves me completely and unconditionally.

If God hadn’t been there for me, I never would have made it. The minute I said, “I’m slipping, I’m falling,” your love, God, took hold and held me fast. When I was upset and beside myself, you calmed me down and cheered me up. Psalms 94:17-19~The Message

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Blessings!

Word Filled Wednesday – Enough


Sometimes we get weary, sometimes the weight of the world seems so heavy to carry. We feel weighted down, we feel confused, we feel discouraged, we feel hopeless. And we want to shout “ENNNNOUUGGGHHHH”.

Jesus said in John 16:33, I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart? I have overcome the world.

 “What will we do when hopelessness attacks? Focus, focus on Jesus. Believe and keep faithful to His Word, to His promises. It’s time for us to turn away from our troubles and accept the peace that only Him can bring.”

“Lord, whatever I am going through right now, I offer that to you. I choose to focus unto you alone. I will not focus on my troubles but I will focus in You alone, knowing that you alone can bring real peace.”

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Lord Can you Carry me?

Lord, I feel tired tonight.
The worries and cares of this world
seem like too heavy to carry.

I’ve got so much in mind

Questions that are unanswered.

I want to see my future,
but I know I can’t.

I know that loneliness
is not from you.

But sometimes I feel that way,

Maybe because I entertain it,
when it knocks.

I know that no one can
help me except You.

That’s why I say Lord,

Can you get the heaviness in my heart.

I surrender them all to you.

I don’t want to carry them,
because i can’t bear the heaviness

I just want to rest in your arms.

I just want to feel your embrace.

Lord, can I cry once again in your shoulder.

Lord, can you wipe again my tears.

Lord, can you carry me once again.

I want to sleep in your presence.

Knowing that tomorrow,
You will wake me up with a smile in your face.

And so, i say

My soul finds rest in You alone;
my salvation comes from you.
You alone is my rock and my salvation;
You are my fortress, I will never be shaken.(Ps.62:1)

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Thankful Thursday

It’s almost two years now since we decided to stay here, after getting married we moved here with lots of hope, plans and dreams. I feel like for two years though, we did so little especially in the ministry, but honestly we’ve grown so much in our spiritual life. It’s during this time that the Lord became too personal, so close, so real and true to us. He became our Pastor, our Mentor, our Teacher. We have limited access to Christian books, teaching devotionals, teaching CDs or DVDs, Christian shows on TV, etc. Our bible is our constant companion when we want to read books other than ‘our bible”, what I am trying to say is, I have never read my bible the way I read it now. I thank the Lord for the gift of time.

Oh from time to time we feel discouraged, we do have disappointments, have so many questions that remained unanswered. Well, instead of forcing God to answer our questions or struggling with the things we do not know, we decided to just leave everything to Him. I remember the road to Emmaus experience, the two disciples failed to recognize Jesus, only after explaining everything and when He broke a piece of bread that their eyes were opened. Maybe when they realized that they were talking with Jesus, they wanted to ask more questions but the moment they recognized Him, He suddenly disappeared from their sight. They wanted to ask few more questions but instead they had to trust what they had received from Him.

Oh Lord thank you for making me realize that I don’t have all the brains to solve or answer everything, thank you for trusting me with the things I know and whatever I receive right now I trust you with that. Thank you for the things I do not know and for not answering all my pleas, it makes me live by faith and long for you more and more. Thank you for my unlimited knowledge, I am overwhelmed  every time you reveal something. Thank you for you are my “GOD” and I am just your creation.

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