Multitudes on Mondays

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Brokenness, the more I feel and see how broken I am, the more I cling to The Lord.

A gentle reminder from Him to live for the present and not for the future.

The gift of “now” reminding myself to live in the present is somehow giving me peace and rest.

Grace, everyday is grace from God, no matter how imperfect life may be, my ability to go through with life is grace from Him

My mess, shouting at my children, trying to manipulate them, choosing anger instead of understanding.  I’m not proud of those, yes Lord I need you more, and thank You for changing me each day.

Thank You for allowing me to grow as a mother to my children and wife to my husband.

Thank you Holy Spirit for rebuking me and allowing me to repent. Remind me always not to do it again and if ever I slip again, may you not get tired of pulling me up. May you soften my heart that I may repent hastily

Thankful for the rain, it seldom rains here.

Thankful for the air was good  and we were able to go out.

Today the weather isn’t that hot, I’m thankful for that.

Thankful for the book I’m reading “Letters to Young Pastor” by Calvin Miller

Thankful for the coffee every day.

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Unwise Servant

IMG_1505Another came, saying ‘Master, here is your mina, which I kept put away in a handkerchief; for I was afraid of you, because you are an exacting man; you take up what you did not lay down and reap what you did not sow.’ Luke 19:20-21

I don’t want to make the graveyard wealthy by not utilizing my gifts. I may feel inadequate sometimes, I may feel like I don’t have gifts or talents at all but I believe God has given me enough to share. It may not be as spectaculars as others. I don’t want to bury it out of fear and insecurity just like the unwise servant.

Father my prayer today is, may you show me the skills, gifts or talents you’ve given me. I may need to develop them or need to be invested in order for them to mature. May you open doors or opportunities for me to use, develop or invest them. I want to utilize anything that you’ve given me to glorify your name.  Amen

Multitudes on Mondays

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Thankful when the children are playing and sleeping, oh how I need quietness, I feel refreshed and energized when the house is quite. This is my “me” time, thinking, reflecting and meditating.

Thankful for the people who mentored me from afar, I read their books and blog, Frank Viola, Max Lucado and Phillip Yancey.

Thankful for the weather, it’s not too hot today. The air is good as well

Thankful for the book I’m reading “When Will My Life not Suck”

Thankful for I have time to read books.

Thankful that I can be with my children for this season of their life, watching them, taking care of their needs.

Thankful for the songs I’m listening, it quiets my soul.

Thankful for a sister who is generous.

Meeting relatives before leaving.

Dining out for free, the owner of the restaurant didn’t charge us and the food was  wonderful.

Multitudes on Mondays

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Beautiful surroundings, I love the threes.

Comfortable house.

 Thankful for we are not paying rent.

Mother-in-law who allows us to stay with her.

Kiddos that are bilingual

For the tight budget and because of that we rarely eat junk food. We couldn’t afford to waste our money with those junk food. No sodas, fast food, processed food,  sweets, etc.

Thankful that our children are somehow eating vegetables like broccoli, mushroom, etc.

Kiddos who love to eat fruits.

Thankful that I can still exclusively breastfeed my 22 months old daughter.

The simple joy of watching The Mentalist Season 6.

Eating healthy food.

I’m staying at home mom, I’m thankful for that.

The continual growth that I go through as a Mother

Thankful that we can still access Facebook, Twitter, WordPress and other sites that are blocked.

Simple life.

New mercies every morning

An extra-large bed that  allows us to co-sleep with our children

 The joy of photographing my daughters.

 Internet, we might not have this unlimited access when we move to the Philippines.

Life has been challenging lately, thankful for His grace and strength.

 Psalm 107:1, “Oh give thanks to the Lord, for He is good, For His lovingkindness is everlasting.”

We’re Moving…..again

“Get up, take the Child and His mother, and go into the land of Israel; for those who sought the Child’s life are dead.” So Joseph got up, took the Child and His mother, and came into the land of Israel. (Matthew 2:20, 21 NASB)

Joseph obeyed God even when he couldn’t understand, he obeyed God even when he didn’t know everything, he obeyed even that means losing everything, his source of income, his business. He obeyed without questioning God. He obeyed even when his reputation was at stake.

As what Max Lucado wrote in his book “He was obedient when the sky was bright.He was obedient when the sky was dark.He didn’t let his confusion disrupt his obedience. He didn’t know everything. But he did what he knew. He shut down his business, packed up his family and went to another country . Why? Because God told him”.

We’re moving to the Philippines next month, unlike Joseph we haven’t heard anything from God or dreamt about this. It’s a major decision and I’m not sure though if it’s wise to move to the Philippines. We prayed for this, we prayed for years.

Our current situation seems telling us to move. We have plans, we have dreams, we know however, it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand. In case God wants to change our plans, we will not fight or resist. We are more than willing if He does.

This journey might be smooth sailing or bumpy. We don’t know what will happen to us in the Philippines. We just hold on to his promise that He is with us.  And if ever we made the wrong decision, if ever our judgement was wrong. His sovereign will is so grand that He works all things together for the good of those who love Him. We know that He will still usher  and lead us through. God knows our hearts, we want so much do His will.

Feeling Spiritually Dry

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Before, I thought that a season of dry spell in our Christian walk is not from God. I thought when we feel dry in our spiritual life  it is either  the attack of the enemy or we are not spending enough time with The Lord.

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Ecclesiastes 3:1 says, there is an appointed time for everything. If the Lord authors wet seasons, He also plans dry spells.

Dry season is the time when your spiritual life is so dull, you feel like you are just going to the motions. There is no excitement, the joy you once experienced seems hard to find. When you read your Bible, the pages seem blank. The songs that you loved to sing no longer touch your heart. Prayer becomes boring. Fellowship no longer excites you.

This is the time when you’re not satisfied with just reading your bible, you want more, you want fresh revelations. This is the time when you don’t know what to pray anymore , you want your prayer to be more than asking. This is the time when you question yourself, what if there will be no band playing in the church, what if there will be no choir, what if no one is leading the praise and worship. What if we just let the Holy Spirit leads the church. What would possibly happen? Will I still cry when I sing, can I still dance or raise my hands. This is the time when you want a genuine community, that meeting once or twice a week isn’t enough for you, you want more than just chatting during Sundays, you want a real community who cares for each other, who cares for the needs of each member. A community who treats each other like family.

IMG_1185I’ve been a Christian for more than 20 years and been into so many dry spells. However it was during this time that I felt so broken and needed The Lord most. It was during this time that I learned things I never learned during wet seasons. It was during this season that I became deep spiritually and I grew tremendously during dry spells. God breathed new life on the things that were dead. It was during this time that the Lord birthed new things in me.

Dry spell is God’s way of saying to us. I am with you during good times. I am also with you during dry times. This is also a time when our loyalty to The Lord is being tested. “Do  we only want Him during wet seasons, when the river runs dry, do we still want the Giver? When the blessings are running out, do we still find ourselves loyal to  the God of blessing? This is the time when The Lord wants to put to death things so that He can resurrect them in the way He wants.

This might be a time to die,

A time to uproot,

A time to tear down,

A time to weep,

time to mourn,

time to embrace or shun embracing,

time to search or time to give up,

time to throw away,

time to tear apart,

time to be silent.

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What do we do during this season? Embrace it, walk through it, it will come to pass, The Lord brings them, he eventually removes them. Patience, perseverance, that’s what you need. Don’t harden your heart. He is with you.

 

God’s Love and Forgiveness are Free

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Straightening up, Jesus said to her, “Woman, where are they? Did no one condemn you?” She said, “No one, Lord.” And Jesus said, “I do not condemn you, either. Go. From now on sin no more.” ] (John 8:10, 11 NASB)

What an amazing and liberating words “I do not condemn you, either. Go. From now on sin no more.”

I’m thankful that He didn’t say to the woman, you have to clean up first, put your acts together, stop committing adultery, do what the law says…..

This verse reminds me of my true identity.

No one can condemn me.
I am forgiven.
I am loved.
I don’t need to perform to earn his love and forgiveness. They are free.

From now on sin no more”

It is His job to transform me and I don’t need to force myself and struggle everyday to be like Him. I can not change myself on my own effort,  for apart from Him I can do nothing (John 15:5) He is working in me, giving me the desire and the power to do what pleases him. (Philippians 2:13)

I praise you Lord Jesus for this. You died, raised to life and sitting at the Father’s right hand, pleading for me and because of that no one can condemn me. I’m chosen and God himself gave me right standing with himself ( Romans 8:33-34)

Longing for Peace Lately

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Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
(Romans 15:13 NASB)

Now the God of peace be with you all. Amen.
(Romans 15:33 NASB)

Grace to you and peace from God our Father and The Lord Jesus Christ.
(1 Corinthians1:3 NASB)

While they were telling these things. He himself stood in their midst and said to them “Peace be to you”
(Luke 24:36 NASB)

These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.”
(John 16:33 NASB)

Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.
(John 14:27 NASB)