Happy Birthday Jezan

imageYou’re a blessing to us. This is our prayer for you.

In every stage of your life, may the Father enable you to do what He has called you to do.

May He anoint you to accomplish what He purposed you to do and be.
May you never stray from it or try to be something or someone you are not.

May the Father deliver you from the plans of the enemy to rob you of life to steal away your uniqueness and giftedness. May you always be the person He’ve created you to be.

May you always desire to follow and please Him and not anyone else.

May you lead people to His Kingdom. May you become the head and not the tail. May you become an influencer.

May you find your identity in Christ. May the Lord help you to see yourself as He does and not how others perceive you. May you not forget that you’re accepted and loved by Him not because of your accomplishments and what you’ve done to Him. You’re loved because He is love.

May sickness will have no place or power in your life. I pray for protection against any disease coming into your body. Whenever there is illness we pray that the Lord would heal you and restore your health completely. May He protect you from any accident. We pray that the Lord grant you long life.

May the Lord give you the deepest desire to properly take care your body and eat only what is good to your body.

May He give you healthy mind and emotion, a teachable spirit and ability to learn. May you love to study His word. May you love learning and desire to attain knowledge and skills. May you find joy in studying.

May your gifts and talents given to you by God be developed in His way and time. May these never be wasted and used only to glorify His name.

We love you!


Naisip Ko Lang

Ang sarap mag post sa Facebook ng pasasalamat kung tayo ay may bagong gadget, kotse o bagong sapatos. Masarap mag post ng papuri sa Panginoon kung tayo ay nasa business class sa eroplano at nasa five star hotel at ang masarap pa nito, all expenses paid by the company, tunay ngang eto ay pagpapala, masarap mag post ng “I am blessed” kung nakakatanggap tayo ng mga bagay bagay na libre, wala nga naman masama na tayo ay magpasalamat sa Dios, nararapat lang na pasalamatan natin sya sa lahat ng mga biyayang natatanggap natin.

Naisip ko lang, kapag palaging ganito ay di ba parang may kondisyon ang ating pasasalamat. Di ba parang nagpapasalamat lang tayo kung may mga materyal na bagay tayong natatanggap o nabibili, nagpapasalamat lang tayo kung may mabubuting nagyayari sa ating buhay. Di ko naman sinasabi na magpasalamat tayo kung may trahedyang nagyayari sa atin. Nakaukit na kasi sa ating pagiisip na blessed lang tayo kapag may may bagong gadget tayo, kapag na-promote tayo sa trabaho, pag nabili natin ang gusto natin, di ba pwedeng “pinagpala tayo” dahil iyun ang totoo ke walang promotion, ke walang bagong gadget, etc, etc. We are blessed period, no buts no ifs.

Parenting… It’s probably the Hardest Job on Earth

Parenting scared me so much, every night I am praying to God to give me wisdom on how to do it right without breaking my children. I’m afraid I might break them instead of make them. I’ve read so many parenting books, but still I feel like, it isn’t enough. At times I feel like I’m going crazy and feel like giving up. But then I realized, they are gifts from God, the Lord sees something in me that He entrusted me these two girls.

And yes, I can not do this alone. When He gave me these children, He’s asking me to partner with Him. He didn’t just give this responsibility to me and left me figure out how to do it on my own. He is there guiding me all through my life and through the life of my children. There is no exact formula for parenting. There are methods that work for me but not for others, that’s is why parenting is by faith. By faith, that He can able to keep our children. That no matter how good our plans for our children, He has better plans for them. That no matter how good our intentions are, we still mess up and do things that we ought not to do and regret later.

Parenting is being dependent on His sovereign plan and loving care for our children. Parenting is being dependent on His wisdom, love, strength and provision. Believing that while we are doing our part He is holding us and our children, guiding us and giving us perfect peace and joy. And yes I’m not brave, I’m not superwoman, I’m not like those who seem so good at parenting. I’m not good, I’m not perfect, I’m a messy parent but one thing I’m proud of, I am dependent, dependent on the One who is Perfect. Dependent on the One who knows my children better than me.

And yes I pray that I would be able to love them unconditionally, I pray I can communicate my love in a manner they can understand. I pray that they can still feel loved and accepted even when we discipline them and I pray that the words I speak will give them life. These are hard to do and that is why I need to be dependent on Him.

My Christmas Reflection

I feel like it’s been forever since my last post – Life has been full of surprises and yes this year has been crazy. I’m thankful though for the adventures we had.

It’s been six months since we moved in the Philippines. I’m grateful for what the Lord is doing, though life here is so different with what we used to, He’s always there to meet our needs. He never ceases to amaze us, indeed He is faithful.

Thankful for the 6 years of marriage, it wasn’t always blissful, the ride was bumpy at times. It was the grace of God that carry us through

Thankful for Christmas, I am reminded once again that our waiting will not be wasted. That our prayers will be answered. He may not come through in our appointed time, He will surely come in His time. Though situations say otherwise, though time may seem running out. I believe God will going to come through on His schedule fulfilling his plans for us. God’s people had been waiting for the Savior promised to them, they prayed and longed for that time to happen. And then on the right time, right place, right day, Jesus was born. While the Lord rarely comes in our appointed time, He always comes at the right time.

Christmas reminded me of His incredible love, He stepped down from heaven, live on earth as an ordinary person died for my sins. I am loved and prized by the God of universe and that’s the truth.

Washing of the Feet

Ahh…what an amazing verse, a picture of humility, grace, forgiveness and mercy. The Lord who washed His disciples feet, such a humbling act.

A Teacher who washed His disciples feet. A Master who did the work of the lowliest servant. If there’s one person in the room who was worthy of having his feet washed it was Him. That’s humility.

He knew that Peter will deny Him, He knew that Judas will betray Him, He knew so well that the rest will abandon Him, they were not worthy of having their feet washed still The Lord did it anyway. That’s grace.

He knew what these men were about to do, yet He forgave them even before they committed it. He offered mercy before they even sought it.

It is easy to wash other’s feet but extending grace and forgiving others especially those who wronged me is quite hard to do. Humbling myself to others even if I didn’t do anything wrong is not easy.

Oftentimes I think like this ” I didn’t do anything wrong, this person hurt me” neither Jesus, the one who’s worthy of being served, served others. The one who was innocent, bore my sins and died for me. He extended grace towards me, He forgave my sins and died for me. Yes I ought to do that to others.

If I then, your Lord and Teacher (Master), have washed your feet, you ought [it is your duty, you are under obligation, you owe it] to wash one another’s feet. For I have given you this as an example, so that you should do [in your turn] what I have done to you. (John 13:14, 15 AMP)

Lord, your heart is truly amazing, You’ve asked me to do the same. It may seem hard, it is actually hard. However you made it possible. May you give me the willingness to forgive and extend grace to others.

Letting go of the wheel

There were times when I asked The Lord to change my circumstances to suit my desires, instead of me conforming to His will. I questioned His ways, analyzed and tried hard to find an answer, until now those questions remained unanswered. It’s just too tiring to figure out everything that’s happening around me. I was disappointed and frustrated because there were things I didn’t know. Then one day the Lord revealed to me the reason, I wanted to know everything, I wanted to be in control. Yes I wanted to be in control and because of that, oftentimes life became so burdensome and I couldn’t enjoy it anymore. When you want to be in control of your life, when you need to know everything, that only means you are not trusting the One who knows everything.

And so I decided to just let go of the wheel, life sucks so why would I even tried to control it. I stopped thinking and feeling that I needed to know everything. I decided not to let circumstances distress me, I tried to look for the will of God for my life to be revealed in and through those circumstances.

In the book of Romans, Apostle Paul said “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.” (Romans 8:28, 29 NLT)

So whatever situation I’m into, in prosperity, in poverty, in sickness, in health, in my struggle, in my happiness. He causes everything to work together for my good and for me to become like His son.

Father help me to trust You completely, how often I want to run ahead of Your leading. May I be reminded always that in the midst of all the events of this life. You are working out Your will for my life.

Forgive my Complaining

IMG_0712Trust in the Lord and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you. (Psalms 37:3-5 NLT)

Lord Forgive my complaining and grumbling. Forgive my foolishness. Lord help me to truly die to myself. Help me to truly die to my dreams, my plans, desires and aspirations. Help to truly die to my happiness, that You may resurrect the life You intended for me. From now I will be thankful and grateful for what I have. I will stop focusing on what is lacking instead I will direct my attention on what I have. I will start to look for You even in the smallest and most ordinary things.

I will stop figuring out the details of my life, I will stop analyzing my situations. I will submit to your guidance, no matter how slow the pacing of our life may be. I will wait. I will lean on your perspective. I may not have a visible plan to follow, the road may at times bumpy and winding, but knowing you are walking with me, I will not stop until we reach our destination.

Leaving Guangzhou Tomorrow

It’s our last day today in Guangzhou, we’re moving north, this place has been our home for almost 5 years, we prayed and waited for the best time and we believed, this is the time to do that. Moving gives me mixed emotions

It’s little bit scary, I’m scared because we’ll start all over again, we gave away most of our things and my husband resigned from his job, it’s expensive to relocate.

I’m leaving behind all the familiarity and comfort, I’m used to. I’m going to deal with new culture, new weather, new environment, new people, everything will be new. It’s indeed stressful.

(The church we’re attending)

The idea of fresh start and a new perspective somehow makes me excited. there will be chances for new opportunities. Opportunities to meet new people, gain new friends, try new delicacies, visiting new places.

I feel overwhelmed and unsure sometimes, hopeful though knowing that the One who called us is faithful and knows our future well. I may not know what lies ahead, however the experienced I had with Him since we moved 5 years ago is enough assurance that He will go before us.

And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.” (Deuteronomy 31:8 NKJV)