Lord Please Hear and Forgive

I wrote and posted this more than 3 years ago. And still my deepest prayer.

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O Lord, God of Israel, there is no God like you in all of heaven above or on the earth below. You fulfill you promises and show unfailing love and grace to those who seek You. Whatever promise you made, You will indeed fulfill it.

You have been so good to me and I couldn’t be more grateful.

Forgive me when I follow my own desires and not Yours, just as I have many times before.

Forgive me when I get destructed from Your purposes, forgetting Your hopes and plans for me and unknowingly put my attention into something that is destructive and dishonor You.

Forgive me when I am doing things on my own wisdom without even considering Yours.
Please know that deep down in my heart all I want is to follow and please You.
That even in my worst moment when it may seem that I have given my affection into something or someone other than You, Please know that my allegiance is always be to You.

When the cares of this world is blinding me from trusting You, when materialism may seem so huge that I become so proud and greedy. When I become so full of myself and I forgetting about others. When I come to my senses and will turn back from them and plead for your mercy and forgiveness. Please hear and forgive.

Oh Lord this is the truest desire of my life. That when my thoughts are not clouded, there is nothing I want more than to know You, to be transformed by You and to follow You. There will be times when I will fail to show that, please remind me to humble myself and come back to You with a saddened and repentant heart. And when I do I pray please hear and forgive.

I want You to know that no matter what happens, whatever life may bring, in failings and successes, in poverty and in prosperity, in sicknesses and in health, I am resolved to keep coming back to you.

Amen!

 

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Happy Birthday Jezan

imageYou’re a blessing to us. This is our prayer for you.

In every stage of your life, may the Father enable you to do what He has called you to do.

May He anoint you to accomplish what He purposed you to do and be.
May you never stray from it or try to be something or someone you are not.

May the Father deliver you from the plans of the enemy to rob you of life to steal away your uniqueness and giftedness. May you always be the person He’ve created you to be.

May you always desire to follow and please Him and not anyone else.

May you lead people to His Kingdom. May you become the head and not the tail. May you become an influencer.

May you find your identity in Christ. May the Lord help you to see yourself as He does and not how others perceive you. May you not forget that you’re accepted and loved by Him not because of your accomplishments and what you’ve done to Him. You’re loved because He is love.

May sickness will have no place or power in your life. I pray for protection against any disease coming into your body. Whenever there is illness we pray that the Lord would heal you and restore your health completely. May He protect you from any accident. We pray that the Lord grant you long life.

May the Lord give you the deepest desire to properly take care your body and eat only what is good to your body.

May He give you healthy mind and emotion, a teachable spirit and ability to learn. May you love to study His word. May you love learning and desire to attain knowledge and skills. May you find joy in studying.

May your gifts and talents given to you by God be developed in His way and time. May these never be wasted and used only to glorify His name.

We love you!

Naisip Ko Lang

Ang sarap mag post sa Facebook ng pasasalamat kung tayo ay may bagong gadget, kotse o bagong sapatos. Masarap mag post ng papuri sa Panginoon kung tayo ay nasa business class sa eroplano at nasa five star hotel at ang masarap pa nito, all expenses paid by the company, tunay ngang eto ay pagpapala, masarap mag post ng “I am blessed” kung nakakatanggap tayo ng mga bagay bagay na libre, wala nga naman masama na tayo ay magpasalamat sa Dios, nararapat lang na pasalamatan natin sya sa lahat ng mga biyayang natatanggap natin.

Naisip ko lang, kapag palaging ganito ay di ba parang may kondisyon ang ating pasasalamat. Di ba parang nagpapasalamat lang tayo kung may mga materyal na bagay tayong natatanggap o nabibili, nagpapasalamat lang tayo kung may mabubuting nagyayari sa ating buhay. Di ko naman sinasabi na magpasalamat tayo kung may trahedyang nagyayari sa atin. Nakaukit na kasi sa ating pagiisip na blessed lang tayo kapag may may bagong gadget tayo, kapag na-promote tayo sa trabaho, pag nabili natin ang gusto natin, di ba pwedeng “pinagpala tayo” dahil iyun ang totoo ke walang promotion, ke walang bagong gadget, etc, etc. We are blessed period, no buts no ifs.

Parenting… It’s probably the Hardest Job on Earth

Parenting scared me so much, every night I am praying to God to give me wisdom on how to do it right without breaking my children. I’m afraid I might break them instead of make them. I’ve read so many parenting books, but still I feel like, it isn’t enough. At times I feel like I’m going crazy and feel like giving up. But then I realized, they are gifts from God, the Lord sees something in me that He entrusted me these two girls.

And yes, I can not do this alone. When He gave me these children, He’s asking me to partner with Him. He didn’t just give this responsibility to me and left me figure out how to do it on my own. He is there guiding me all through my life and through the life of my children. There is no exact formula for parenting. There are methods that work for me but not for others, that’s is why parenting is by faith. By faith, that He can able to keep our children. That no matter how good our plans for our children, He has better plans for them. That no matter how good our intentions are, we still mess up and do things that we ought not to do and regret later.

Parenting is being dependent on His sovereign plan and loving care for our children. Parenting is being dependent on His wisdom, love, strength and provision. Believing that while we are doing our part He is holding us and our children, guiding us and giving us perfect peace and joy. And yes I’m not brave, I’m not superwoman, I’m not like those who seem so good at parenting. I’m not good, I’m not perfect, I’m a messy parent but one thing I’m proud of, I am dependent, dependent on the One who is Perfect. Dependent on the One who knows my children better than me.

And yes I pray that I would be able to love them unconditionally, I pray I can communicate my love in a manner they can understand. I pray that they can still feel loved and accepted even when we discipline them and I pray that the words I speak will give them life. These are hard to do and that is why I need to be dependent on Him.

My Christmas Reflection

I feel like it’s been forever since my last post – Life has been full of surprises and yes this year has been crazy. I’m thankful though for the adventures we had.

It’s been six months since we moved in the Philippines. I’m grateful for what the Lord is doing, though life here is so different with what we used to, He’s always there to meet our needs. He never ceases to amaze us, indeed He is faithful.

Thankful for the 6 years of marriage, it wasn’t always blissful, the ride was bumpy at times. It was the grace of God that carry us through

Thankful for Christmas, I am reminded once again that our waiting will not be wasted. That our prayers will be answered. He may not come through in our appointed time, He will surely come in His time. Though situations say otherwise, though time may seem running out. I believe God will going to come through on His schedule fulfilling his plans for us. God’s people had been waiting for the Savior promised to them, they prayed and longed for that time to happen. And then on the right time, right place, right day, Jesus was born. While the Lord rarely comes in our appointed time, He always comes at the right time.

Christmas reminded me of His incredible love, He stepped down from heaven, live on earth as an ordinary person died for my sins. I am loved and prized by the God of universe and that’s the truth.

Multitudes on Mondays

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Brokenness, the more I feel and see how broken I am, the more I cling to The Lord.

A gentle reminder from Him to live for the present and not for the future.

The gift of “now” reminding myself to live in the present is somehow giving me peace and rest.

Grace, everyday is grace from God, no matter how imperfect life may be, my ability to go through with life is grace from Him

My mess, shouting at my children, trying to manipulate them, choosing anger instead of understanding.  I’m not proud of those, yes Lord I need you more, and thank You for changing me each day.

Thank You for allowing me to grow as a mother to my children and wife to my husband.

Thank you Holy Spirit for rebuking me and allowing me to repent. Remind me always not to do it again and if ever I slip again, may you not get tired of pulling me up. May you soften my heart that I may repent hastily

Thankful for the rain, it seldom rains here.

Thankful for the air was good  and we were able to go out.

Today the weather isn’t that hot, I’m thankful for that.

Thankful for the book I’m reading “Letters to Young Pastor” by Calvin Miller

Thankful for the coffee every day.

Unwise Servant

IMG_1505Another came, saying ‘Master, here is your mina, which I kept put away in a handkerchief; for I was afraid of you, because you are an exacting man; you take up what you did not lay down and reap what you did not sow.’ Luke 19:20-21

I don’t want to make the graveyard wealthy by not utilizing my gifts. I may feel inadequate sometimes, I may feel like I don’t have gifts or talents at all but I believe God has given me enough to share. It may not be as spectaculars as others. I don’t want to bury it out of fear and insecurity just like the unwise servant.

Father my prayer today is, may you show me the skills, gifts or talents you’ve given me. I may need to develop them or need to be invested in order for them to mature. May you open doors or opportunities for me to use, develop or invest them. I want to utilize anything that you’ve given me to glorify your name.  Amen

Multitudes on Mondays

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Thankful when the children are playing and sleeping, oh how I need quietness, I feel refreshed and energized when the house is quite. This is my “me” time, thinking, reflecting and meditating.

Thankful for the people who mentored me from afar, I read their books and blog, Frank Viola, Max Lucado and Phillip Yancey.

Thankful for the weather, it’s not too hot today. The air is good as well

Thankful for the book I’m reading “When Will My Life not Suck”

Thankful for I have time to read books.

Thankful that I can be with my children for this season of their life, watching them, taking care of their needs.

Thankful for the songs I’m listening, it quiets my soul.

Thankful for a sister who is generous.

Meeting relatives before leaving.

Dining out for free, the owner of the restaurant didn’t charge us and the food was  wonderful.